My First Thought

I’m still not fixed. But it doesn’t take as long these days. After testing positive for the flu Friday morning and getting some fluids, I’m finally feeling a little better.  After I finished my morning coffee, I walked into my home office and thought, OK, I feel better so let’s catch up on work. 

I love my home office. I’ve made it a happy place for creativity. But as I looked around I had a revelation. There is no one in here that has taken care of me the past 48 hours. My husband who made my meals, is in the living room. My daughter who made sure I always had liquids is in her room. I haven’t even felt like reading my Bible the past two days. How about a return call to my mom and besties who offered to leave food and meds at the back door?

I love what I do for a living. So it’s natural that when I feel good, I want to work. That’s why it makes it even more important that I stay present and make an intentional choice. Today, while I have that 15 minute boost of energy, I’ll use it talking to my husband or making sure Claire Bear has what she needs for her week. I’ll watch or listen to a sermon to make sure my spiritual tank gets some fuel as well.

Tomorrow, when they are gone about their day, it will be time to work again. I’m learning with my work team to prioritize what we do and talk about when we are face to face. I need to do the same with my family. Weekends are precious. We get limited time during the week face to face …. Prioritize the weekends with the ones you love. 

Two years ago, I attended a leadership conference for work and there was a speaker who studies the brain’s structure and function. He said you you can’t control your first thought, but you can control your next thought. I’m not proud of my first thought this morning, but my second thought and my actions show progress. Am I Still a Big Deal?